Reiki in the Hospital

My mom misses her Reiki sessions! I'm amazed. So, I started just putting both hands on her leg, and making sure I stay there for an hour, even though nurses come in and out. It is amazing how comforted she is by the Reiki energy. She just laps it up, and feels much better when I let her know that she indeed has received a total of an hour.

What I mostly do is just put a hand on her while I sit there, and turn on the Reiki. That works too. Both hands are better, but the one hand is comforting enough.

She'll be in there until probably Tuesday.

I'm in hell again though. And I am a new hater of chemo and the oncologist paradigm. What was I thinking letting an 84 year old woman do chemo anyway? Desperate or not, I should have put my foot down - my instinct was to refuse, but I let myself get talked into it.

Lesson: ALWAYS follow your gut. I knew this was wrong, and I let the world do what it wanted, not what I wanted.

Once my mom gets to the point where she can eat a semi normal amount of food, I'm going to put her on the Budwig Protocol. Full force. At the very least, people's qualities of life are improved. At the most, they go into remission. I think my mom's set to go out next year, for a number of reasons, but if she can be out of pain naturally and have some energy, I'll take that.

And we'll probably get her into hospice for the support in the meantime.

My mother is my best friend, and just a wonderful person. She is the biggest light in my life, and I'm devastated having to face all of this right now.