Diary No. 16 - She's still seeing stuff in her aura

I'd never have expected my mother to get to seeing things in her aura, as I said in the previous post.

Last night I did Reiki while the Dick Sutphen CD was on. We get to the music part, she's sleeping and suddenly says "Lake Como." OK, so I say, "what?" and then she wakes up. When she woke up, she saw a big, dark pink flower in her aura, and next to that was a kidney shaped spot. Now it was just an outline, translucent. Good that it went from black, to gray, to red, to clear. I just wasn't sure what the whole thing meant.

Pauline came over this afternoon and thought that Lake Como is kidney shaped. OK, that makes sense. She also thought that the things in her aura had something to do with part of the origins of the cancer.

So, after a very long and powerful vortex healing session (I sit and put Reiki into the room while she's doing it - supports them both), she came up with my mother's childhood and her parents worrying about money, which possibly made life seem like a grind, and not too sweet, to my mother. A similar feeling came up early in her marriage. Made sense both times. My mother was raised during the depression, and while my grandfather didn't lose his job, he got fewer commissions and was making less money to raise four girls. My father lost his drugstore to the big chains at the beginning of their marriage, and his employment situation didn't really stablize after that for ten years.

Worries about money definitely contribute to my mother's cancer. It was particularly appropriate today because my mother had been feeling desperate about her own money situation, and just before Pauline arrived we had been having this little dramatic argument where I was adamant that she was cutting her life short by worrying so much.

Of course when Pauline tested her chakras with the pendulum, they were very low, hardly moving. The root was the best of them all, but not great. By the end of the session, they were all moving much better. It really was direct proof of the power of the emotions to suppress one's energy and thereby immune system. It is only when my mother is depressed about money that she has these non-moving chakras. Worry is a complete waste of energy, that's for sure!

Later tonight, she had no complaints about dinner, and told me she decided that she was going to stop complaining about things and be more cheerful. I hope that doesn't mean she's going to keep things in more, because I also know that THAT particular aspect of her personality also lowers ones immunity.

So, things get scary when these types of events occur. I start to get scared that she'll start getting really sick again. She is pretty much fine now, apart from being a little tired, and not having the muscle tone she lost in the hospital really back enough to want to go outside in the garden by herself.